almost 5 years

In August it will have been 5 years since my grandfather passed away. He was a simple man he ran a very successful car dealership. He only made it to 8th grade, and he joined the marines. He was in the Korean war and he left there with a purple heart a bronze star and a silver star. He suffered multiple injuries in Korea but I never heard him speak of the war. We were very very close he was about to move into my mothers house I couldn't have been happier. I joined the army to follow in his footsteps and went to basic training. Just two weeks after I got back he went into cardiac arrest. I was so angry I wasted all that time gone that I could have spent with him. I was angry because he always seemed so invincible I was angry for him making me think he would always be around and now he wasn't. I knew in some part of me that it was going to happen soon but I was not prepared for it. When I was told I went into my room threw everything I could get my hands on and left for school. The worst was yet to come. Like I said my grandfather was a simple man so he didn't mention very much in his will. Which drove my family apart we went from getting together with aunts and uncles and cousins every holiday and every birthday to not speaking for almost 5 years now. It was all so ridiculous and childish after all it is just stuff it can not bring my grandparents back. But people tend to hang on to the things of the ones who have passed. I don't while it is nice to have something I wouldn't risk the relationship with my siblings over stuff or money. I love them to much and I respect my parents to much. I miss my grandpa very much, I can't honestly say I have ever dealt with him passing I never think about it. I don't look at pictures or tell stories I don't deal with it at all. I have been to the grave site once since my grandparents passed. And I am not sure I can go again. I do think my grandpa died of a broken heart he missed my grandma so much and I am glad they are back together even if that means I can't see them.