Who am I?

Something that I had always prided myself on is being able to hide anything and everything. If you see me and I had just gotten into an argument with someone you wouldn't know. I don't tell people things even when I need to get something off of my chest. I never talked to my psychologists I simply sat there and told them whatever it was I thought they wanted to hear. I am a volcano I hold everything in until I can't any longer then I explode and don't even know how to handle myself. This happens once maybe twice a year and I am normally depressed and just plain down after for about a month. My main goal to tell you who I am honestly and openly. To be able to get out everything that I am thinking no matter what. I have feelings and emotions I need to express them in a healthy manner before I lose the opportunity and can never do it again. I want you to learn about me what I have been through and how that has made me who I am today. Hopefully I can make time to write and do something for me (another thing I have a hard time doing.) That being said let me tell you a little bit about me. Currently I have been with my husband for almost 4 years and we have been married for a little over 1 year. We have a almost 2 year old son named Isaac. I love my husband and my child so much it is ridiculous. I pray daily that my husband and I will never get divorced while I don't see that in our future and we have a good marriage you never know. I do not want my child to have to go through what I went through. My biggest fears are getting divorced and getting into a car accident with my son in the car. Sometimes it is scary to love something as much as I love my son because I don't know what I would do if anything happened to him. That is all for now thank you if you listen.